Things changed.

Now, i no longer know what she is doing, where she goes, who she going out with.

Maybe having no time for her is a major part of this.

Someone else has all the time in the world for her?

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So god-damn-painful

Lets share my work so far.
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Monday
- report back to camp
- nobody around
- thus boss ask me to go home and go back on wed

wednesday
- report back to camp...again
- do nothing for whole day
- went home cos no bunk

Thursday
- told which company im going
- also told im doing duty the next day liao
**WTH

Friday
- took over BDO duties
- While still taking over, i got to conduct IPPT

Saturaday
- hand over duties and went home

Sunday
- take over duties AGAIN
- And here i am writing this post.

Monday
- before hand over duties, i got to conduct another IPPT

OMG.

what to say, "welcome back to the force, albert!"

couldnt believe she actually went genting with him. (even though is 4 for them)

she din ask me if she could go, she just inform me she is going.

couldnt do much to stop her. (or should i say i din even stop her)

anyway, she already had the intention of going with them quite some time back le.
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remember she told me, going oversea with a guy is able to help build up their relationship.
(thats how we grew ours back then)
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ask yourself, which guy can take all these blows?
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i really dunno what i should do already.
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cant limit her freedom
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cant spent alot of time with her
(back in service now full time)
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she wanted a graduation trip oversea, but if i don go work, how to bring her oversea?
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but now im working, but she went oversea with other people le.
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as a matter of fact, im in camp doing my BDO duty while she is in genting.
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just what am i now?
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im like dunno when she is going say its not working anymore again.

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maybe i should just concentrate on my work now.....

oh ya, got to wish bon voyage to the gf as she intending to go Genting or australia.

With who?

Everyone else except the bf, as he din even know .

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bf has been slowly left out in everything she is involved with......

His heart broke so many times without her realising.....

All i wanted was a steady relationship. dint happen.

can u imagine the pain to have to imagine what your gf will be doing outside with her FRIENDs when the bf is going back to camp?

Situation 1: gf will complaint the bf got no time for her
Situation 2: gf lagi happy, got more time to go out with her FRIENDs

Imagine if the guy knew that his gf has been going out with FRIENDs but still he kept his cool to prevent fight, hoping its going to be jus this time. but things doesnt look this way.

last time, the bf are allowed to meet up and interact with her friends, but now, he cant even join them. (while another guy can) - can u feel how he will feel?

imagine all the bf wanted to do was to ensure someone will send his gf home or to places, he was taken as stalking.

Bottomline, times diff, last time everything was sweet, now, everything he did was wrong.

GF said its not bcos of the guy, its the 2 of them. BF tried to do something, but realised there is not going to be any diff bcos of that guy.

Nobody understand how the GF is thinking but herself. whether or not whatever u said to the bf is true or not, only her mind will know.

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feeling sad, down and distracted for the BF

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give him this song to describe his feelings (Side links)

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bunny's bf