Been soo soo long.....

a few months since i even log on to my blog.

this is the time i have to learn to let go....of IT

demodding everything i built...

i seen it grow from a pony to horse.

now i go see it get stripped.

well...no choice, got to think of the future.

got to reduce all spendings now and save up whatever i can from my already little pay.

lets see how far i can go with it.

next....what should i welcome?

what shall be the new house for all my little eeyores????

"pa pa, we houseless now, when will our new house come???"

thats what bei told them to ask me... lol

we shall wait and see....

Lets do a comparison.....


Of this.....


and this...!!!


ok, i got to say, position also wrong

Do i look like a TARGET BOARD??

Why do people always shoot/throw/stab arrows at me?

been adding on work load before i can have the time to finish them off

Under paid and overworking.....

u call this PRIDE??
P: people
R: rest
I: i
D: do
E: extra
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relationship haven been smooth either
(at least i don wish to think about it any more now)

that group of guys,

Simply hate them all....

(maybe i should just don care and let them be...)

Things changed.

Now, i no longer know what she is doing, where she goes, who she going out with.

Maybe having no time for her is a major part of this.

Someone else has all the time in the world for her?

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So god-damn-painful

Lets share my work so far.
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Monday
- report back to camp
- nobody around
- thus boss ask me to go home and go back on wed

wednesday
- report back to camp...again
- do nothing for whole day
- went home cos no bunk

Thursday
- told which company im going
- also told im doing duty the next day liao
**WTH

Friday
- took over BDO duties
- While still taking over, i got to conduct IPPT

Saturaday
- hand over duties and went home

Sunday
- take over duties AGAIN
- And here i am writing this post.

Monday
- before hand over duties, i got to conduct another IPPT

OMG.

what to say, "welcome back to the force, albert!"

couldnt believe she actually went genting with him. (even though is 4 for them)

she din ask me if she could go, she just inform me she is going.

couldnt do much to stop her. (or should i say i din even stop her)

anyway, she already had the intention of going with them quite some time back le.
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remember she told me, going oversea with a guy is able to help build up their relationship.
(thats how we grew ours back then)
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ask yourself, which guy can take all these blows?
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i really dunno what i should do already.
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cant limit her freedom
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cant spent alot of time with her
(back in service now full time)
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she wanted a graduation trip oversea, but if i don go work, how to bring her oversea?
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but now im working, but she went oversea with other people le.
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as a matter of fact, im in camp doing my BDO duty while she is in genting.
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just what am i now?
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im like dunno when she is going say its not working anymore again.

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maybe i should just concentrate on my work now.....

oh ya, got to wish bon voyage to the gf as she intending to go Genting or australia.

With who?

Everyone else except the bf, as he din even know .

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bf has been slowly left out in everything she is involved with......

His heart broke so many times without her realising.....